3 months

Its been 3 months since the death of my mom. More recently I seem to be struggling with dealing with the loss. The many things that keep popping up in head are the few days before she died. Its been hard trying not to think about those finally days but its also hard to not think about those days. She was in constant need of something or someone. She looked horrible. There was honestly nothing I could do for her except pray. I wish I could have done something to help her. Hopefully shes in a better place now. Better then where she was. I'm praying that shes not in anymore pain. If she were to see me right now I hope shes proud of me. I'm trying my best to follow in her footsteps. My goal is to be a writer. She inspired me to do what I believe in. I believed in her and her work. I will continue to write and try my best to carry on. Some interesting things that happened between me and her was the time she let me have a Halloween party. We threw this party when I was in 6th grade and people are still talking about it today. She defiantly left an impression on them. Shes known for that. Her words left an impression on many. What she left with me will stay with me for a life time. I love you mom. I hope your in your dream house waiting for me.