3 months

Its been 3 months since the death of my mom. More recently I seem to be struggling with dealing with the loss. The many things that keep popping up in head are the few days before she died. Its been hard trying not to think about those finally days but its also hard to not think about those days. She was in constant need of something or someone. She looked horrible. There was honestly nothing I could do for her except pray. I wish I could have done something to help her. Hopefully shes in a better place now. Better then where she was. I'm praying that shes not in anymore pain. If she were to see me right now I hope shes proud of me. I'm trying my best to follow in her footsteps. My goal is to be a writer. She inspired me to do what I believe in. I believed in her and her work. I will continue to write and try my best to carry on. Some interesting things that happened between me and her was the time she let me have a Halloween party. We threw this party when I was in 6th grade and people are still talking about it today. She defiantly left an impression on them. Shes known for that. Her words left an impression on many. What she left with me will stay with me for a life time. I love you mom. I hope your in your dream house waiting for me.

Message from Jennifer again

Its been almost 2 months since my mothers death and its not getting any easier. A very good friend of my mothers told me that updating every once in awhile about some of the many things about my mother would be a good idea. I agree with him. Theres so many things about her that I will never forget. Her favorite ride at Cedar point-Millenium force. Her favorite ice cream- napolean. Her favorite scent- vanilla bean noel. She loved taking pictures. I cant tell you how many pictures I have that she took. Her camera only holds many more and her laptop. She loved animals. Mainly dogs but she knew I loved cats so we always had both in our house. Her 2 favorite dogs were chewy and chewrella. She loved them very much. She loved to watch movies and have pj parties with me. We would get popcorn and candy and stay up all night. Christmas time was her favorite season. All the decorations and presents filled her heart with joy. I know her favorite part of christmas was when I was little seeing my face when I saw all the presents under the chrismas tree. She was always so excited just like me. We would spend hours decorating the house. One time we made a string of popcorn for the tree. We were throwing the popcorn at each other instead. Then she has a brilliant idea to put popcorn on the celling fan and watch popcorn fly. I loved those times. She was laughing and living her life to the fullest. Ill post again some time soon with more facts about my mother. Thanks for reading.

poems by jennifer sick

she opened her eyes
and was on a cloud
a man appeared
and said aloud
you've lived a life
once so beautiful
yet so strong
take my hand
no fear allowed
no tears to shred
or pain to feel
just love and happiness
for all eternity
while many on earth
may cry and shout
you shall be safe
from all no doubt
for you are here
to be adored
by all you see
now through eternity
withoug a doubt
your always fighting
and I love you for that
stay who you are
not just for me
but for god you'll see
we love you for who you are
that woman you are
that mother you are
that beautiful soul
and loving heart
no matter what
you will always be
~My Mother~
~I Love You~

*********************************
~Till death~
By: Jennifer Sick


She closed her eyes and had a dream
God was there with a bright glowing beam
he said to her "your time has come and gone"
be not afraid
your soul is not lost
for you are in heaven
she looked around
and what did she see
loved ones thats where once lost
well how can that be?
what God has said
must be true
Theres no pain, no fear
not even a tear

She looked down and what did she see?
her family and friends crying sadly
She turned to God and said,
"why are they crying
so sad and so dim"

Its cause they lost a loved one
so pure and so beautiful
they lost their daughter and even their mother...

She tryed to cry out
and tell them shes ok
but they did not hear
so she fell to her knees
and began to pray
"Oh God please protect them"
"let my daughter know that I will always be there"
"i will guide her"
"lover her and always protect her"

God did just as she asked,
and the family moved on
but still thing of her
again and again...

This is dedicated to my mother...
I love you...

A message from her daughter

Hello everyone. My names Jennifer Sick but im sure you already know this. My mom always made sure she included me in anything she wrote especially on her blogs. She was a very outgoing person and one of a kind. There is noone out there that could ever replace my mother. She inspired me to do many things and im sure she also inspired many others. She was a fighter. She refused to give up. Chemo treatments, radiation, pain medications, and surgerys after surgerys she fought to destroy this cancer that took her life. She told herself everyday "yes i can". She once held me in her arms and told me shes doing everything she could to prolong her life for me. There are so many things she will miss and things she will not see. Why should a woman so yound and so beautiful lose her life to such a horrible desease? Lifes not fair. Always tell the ones you love just how much you love and care about them cause you never know what tomorrow has in store. I love you mom. You were strong. I hope your on your beach house in heaven with your toes in the sand surronded my shells and the wonderful sun waiting for me. I will see you then. Till then I hope your happy and comfortable in your new life. Love you always, Your daughter, Jennifer.

Passing of our loving Becky

Becky passed on this afternoon at 12:17 pm. She is now free from the pain of this cancer and her spirit can move on to be free. We will always remeber her as she was. Her wonderful spirit that loved life, loved writing, loved the water and beach. We will miss her dearly!

Love, her sister-

Rest In Peace
March 2, 1969 - July 17, 2009

Going back to Work

Of course FedEx stopped by my house on Saturday with orders for me to show up to work on Monday at 6am. It figures, the week I can make it down is the week I go back to work. I'm still gonna try and figure a way down one of these coming weekends.

Here are a few more pics of Becky. I think these are on this blog spot somewhere.

Praying for a layoff

I work for a supplier for GM. I've been on layoff and they started bring people back this week. More than likely I will start back next week but if I don't I will have time and money to go visit Becky for a week. So lets all pray for a continued layoff.

Love you and miss you Becky, here's hoping I get to see you next week.

JP

Becky's nursing home

This makes me sad. This is where Becky is. It's a nice place and she has a window by her bed. The last time I visited she told me she was at peace with everything.



There are a massive amount of stairs at the memorial. It's near Becky's home and she use to walk these stairs trying to loose weight on her butt. That's funny because Becky has always been tall and thin.

Becky not doing so great

Hello all,

I got an email from Becky's mother, she doesn't know how long Becky can hang in there, she not eating, and is down to nothing, but is still alert and can talk to them.

I heard a song from Black Eyed Peas that I thought I would share:

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish
I spent my time just thinking about you
Every single day I'm really missing you
And all those things we use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinking about you
Every single day, yes I'm really missing you
And all those things we use to do

Beautiful

Always thinking about her so I thought I would share some pictures I have of Becky. If you would like to share send it to me at yahoo, jjumpinjim and I will put some up.