Above is a picture of me and my son. He's almost 16 months old! He now has 7 teeth, eats only solid foods, and runs everywhere! I'm still working full time and going to school full time. I'm also dating someone new who treats me alot better then my sons dad. My son loves this guy and so do I. I couldn't be any happier <3

Message of Jennifer Sick

I just wanted to let everyone know that I have created my own blog, and if you wanted to follow your more then welcome to. I don't get on this blog as much and I know some wanted me to keep in touch. My URL is http://november072011.blogspot.com/ Just add me! Thanks everyone!

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday my beautiful girl, love u with all my heart, and will always, your new grandson is great, and your daughter is being a very good Mom, just like her mother, well your sister had a baby boy on the 23rd of February almost made it to your birthday, he was 5lb 12oz and 17inches, his name is George Reid, first name after your grandpa. We now have the boys in the family you would have been so happy they are so cute. Love MOM xoxoxoxoxoxo

Its jen again. Long time no post. Just thought I would show you my son. His names Cole Alexander. He was born november 7th, 2011 at 4:54 pm at Mercy Hospital. 6 lbs 14 oz. He now weighs 12 lb 9 oz and is the love of my life <3

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Love u very much, and miss u every day LOVE MOM XOXOXOXOXOXO

Till the day we meet again

Theres so much to tell. So much on my mind. How do I tell you? Do I show you? Do I tell you? Do I dare talk to myself and look like a foul? Do I dare reenact only to know that I really dont know. Dont know if your watching or even there. How do I know your real? How do I know your even there? I dont know and I wont know. There once was a time that you were here and saw what I saw. Did what I did. Lived what I live. You dont live anymore. And thats the problem. Is there another life? Are you who you want to be? Where you want to live? Do you miss me as I miss you? Do you still love me as I still love you? Where ever you are, are they with you? The two most important beings. Are they gone as well? You loved them as much as I did. Chewy and Chewrella. Our two pups. Are they alive and well with you? I miss them. How about her? Is she there too? Patches? Is she running free in her new life? Are you happy? Do you have everything you want or need? Does "he" treat you right. Is he who everyone says he really is. "God". Do you forgive him for taking your life? I cant find forgiveness. Its to hard. Ive been told theres a reason. I reason for everything. A reason for your death. Whats that reason? Was it me? All these questions. They have no answers. You cant answer them. Alive or gone. You cant respond. If you were here you wouldnt know how to answer. But your gone. You cant answer. Maybe you do have the answers. How would I know? I dont see you. I dont hear you. You vanished. I remember the days you tucked me in bed. Where are you? Its bed time and I have covered untucked. I remember coming home to a fresh, hot dinner. Where are you? Theres nothing waiting for me. My rooms a mess. You use to make sure I had everything neat and organized. Where are you? I cant keep up with it if your not here to tell me to do it. I wanna cry. I use to cuddle up next to you and cry on your shoulder. Where are you? I need your shoulder. I need you to welcome me with open arms. Never to judge me no matter how old I am. I wanna give up. Where are you? You always told me how strong I am and that I can over come anything. That I was strong. You promised you were there for me. Where are you? I dont see you? I want to see you. See your beautiful smile. Not the smile I saw when you passed. The smile you gave me everyday when I came home. That warm welcome. The love. I was never refused of your open arms. Your love. Your concern. You loved me. I was your one and only. I never left your side. But you left mine. Your gone. Your not there. I turn to my left and my right. Where are you? I dont see you. Youve vanished. I'm confused. I miss you. I wish that none of this every happened. Its affected my life. Drastically. The others, they dont see. They dont know what its like to lose someone as important as you. They dont know the feeling. The pain I went through and still go through. I go through my life everyday wondering. Wondering where you are. What your doing. If your still alive deep down. I love you. No matter if your still here or not. Your my one and only. The only Mom I could ever ask for. Noone will ever replace you. I love you and miss you so much. Your forever loved. Mom <3

2010 Dance

This is Myself with Joe Andler. The guy Ive had a crush on since freshman year. I had an amazing time at the dance. Missin mom always.

Over a year.

Its Jen. My moms been gone for well over a year. I can't help but to think of her right now cause of the memories she gave me. She through a halloween party for me and my class in 6th grade. My friends still talk about that day to this very day. She made an impression on them. Something that they will never forget. Im almost 18. In less than 2 months actually. I really wish she was here. More than anything. I have my school dance next saturday and Im going with the guy Ive had a crush on since freshman year. Mom was the first to find out that I had this crush on him. She would be so happy for me. She always told me to go after what I dream of. I finally did and shes not here. I miss her dearly. Things would be different if she was still here. I wouldnt regret coming home everyday. I wouldnt wish that I lived somewhere else. Id just have her. It would be like the old days when I came home to a warm dinner on the table. I bright smile no matter how her day went. No yelling, no complaining, just love. Thats all she gave. She gave so much love to other people that she never asked for it in return. I feel like I neglected that. If I could redo everything I would. I would tell her how much I love her. How much I cant stand to watch her go. I want her here to hold my hair back when Im sick, To hug me when Im gonna cry, to rock me when Im scared and tell me everything will alright. To care. When I think back I remember that no matter what I did wrong she still loved me with unconditional love. I was her one and only. I wish I realized this back then rather then now when its to late. I would do anything to have her back. To live with her and know that no matter what I have a home with a warm meal everyday, and of course... her unconditional love. I love her very much. No matter where she is... She will always be my mom.

ONE YEAR and never forgotten with much LOVE MOM xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Over 10 months

Hello again. Its me, Jennifer Sick. Rebecca's daughter. Its been over 10n months since she's been gone. Its not getting any easier. I've heard that it will. When is that? An eternity? Around this time mom would be getting me ready for school to be over for summer. I plan on doing all the fun things we use to do together during the summer time. Between Cedar Point, Clays Park, The Beach, and having a good time. She will always be there with me spiritually and I will always remember her while im on my summer break. I'll be a Senior this coming year. Mom was looking forward to my Senior year but, of course she's not here for it. I love her dearly as well as everyone else. Stay Strong. Love, Jennifer.

Happy Birthday

Thought of you with Love today, but that is nothing new. I thought of you yesterday and the days before that, too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake, with which I'll never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my...HEART. With Much LOVE MOM

Movies, driving, etc..

Some of the many movies my mom and I watched were mainly love movies. Im sure you already knew this. She loved to watch the Notebook. It was her favorite. Basically anything that had to do with love she watched it. Unfortunatly when she was unable to drive we would watch movies countless times that it became boring. It was all we could do though and I still enjoyed every moment. As for me Driving I have my license. I drive to school everyday and I enjoy it. Im just like my mother and of course Im afraid. My mom was always telling me of the worries of driving and how she was terrified of getting into an accident and that she would rather fly then drive anyday. I agree with her. I remember when I drove her and I to Florida many times and back. It was a fun experience. We would blair the radio and sing till we couldnt talk. Many of my memories of her were while driving to florida and in florida. She made sure to make her last moments with me wonderful and Ill never forget them.

Favorite memory of Me and My Mother

My favorite memory of my mom would have to be all the countless nights we would spend together watching movies. She called it PJ/movie/popcorn night. We would get into our favorite pajamas and cuddle up together on the couch. Of course we had 10 blankets on us because mom was crazy about being under the warm blankets. We would watch countless movies and eat tons of popcorn. The one night we grabbed our blankets and sore around the room like we were birds who were free and happy to be alive. We laughed for hours on end. Another night my mom decided to put our remaining popcorn on our ceiling fan and watch them fly. We were on the floor rolling in popcorn, laughing. After all the fun was over and we decided to go to bed, we would sleep in the same bed. We would lay together and talk about our day. I would tell you everything about school and the boy I use to like. She would tell me either about her work or her love life. I helped her threw it all. I was mommys little helper and I forever will be.

Ask

Hello. Its Jennifer again. Its been a long 6 months, but ive been getting threw this. Slowly of course. I would like for you to ask anything you would like you know. Weather its about my mother or me. I'll try and answer as best as I can. Thank you.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas From Heaven
I still hear the songs,
I still see the lights
I still feel your love on cold wintery nights

I still share your hopes and all of your cares
I'll even remind you to please say your prayers

I just want to tell you, you still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders above all the crowd

Keep trying each moment, To stay in His Grace
I came here before you to help set your place

You don't have to be perfect all the time
He forgives you the slip, If you continue the climb

To my family and friends,
Please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you,
In a new special way

I love you all dearly,
Now dont't shed a tear
Cause I'm spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year

3 months

Its been 3 months since the death of my mom. More recently I seem to be struggling with dealing with the loss. The many things that keep popping up in head are the few days before she died. Its been hard trying not to think about those finally days but its also hard to not think about those days. She was in constant need of something or someone. She looked horrible. There was honestly nothing I could do for her except pray. I wish I could have done something to help her. Hopefully shes in a better place now. Better then where she was. I'm praying that shes not in anymore pain. If she were to see me right now I hope shes proud of me. I'm trying my best to follow in her footsteps. My goal is to be a writer. She inspired me to do what I believe in. I believed in her and her work. I will continue to write and try my best to carry on. Some interesting things that happened between me and her was the time she let me have a Halloween party. We threw this party when I was in 6th grade and people are still talking about it today. She defiantly left an impression on them. Shes known for that. Her words left an impression on many. What she left with me will stay with me for a life time. I love you mom. I hope your in your dream house waiting for me.

Message from Jennifer again

Its been almost 2 months since my mothers death and its not getting any easier. A very good friend of my mothers told me that updating every once in awhile about some of the many things about my mother would be a good idea. I agree with him. Theres so many things about her that I will never forget. Her favorite ride at Cedar point-Millenium force. Her favorite ice cream- napolean. Her favorite scent- vanilla bean noel. She loved taking pictures. I cant tell you how many pictures I have that she took. Her camera only holds many more and her laptop. She loved animals. Mainly dogs but she knew I loved cats so we always had both in our house. Her 2 favorite dogs were chewy and chewrella. She loved them very much. She loved to watch movies and have pj parties with me. We would get popcorn and candy and stay up all night. Christmas time was her favorite season. All the decorations and presents filled her heart with joy. I know her favorite part of christmas was when I was little seeing my face when I saw all the presents under the chrismas tree. She was always so excited just like me. We would spend hours decorating the house. One time we made a string of popcorn for the tree. We were throwing the popcorn at each other instead. Then she has a brilliant idea to put popcorn on the celling fan and watch popcorn fly. I loved those times. She was laughing and living her life to the fullest. Ill post again some time soon with more facts about my mother. Thanks for reading.

poems by jennifer sick

she opened her eyes
and was on a cloud
a man appeared
and said aloud
you've lived a life
once so beautiful
yet so strong
take my hand
no fear allowed
no tears to shred
or pain to feel
just love and happiness
for all eternity
while many on earth
may cry and shout
you shall be safe
from all no doubt
for you are here
to be adored
by all you see
now through eternity
withoug a doubt
your always fighting
and I love you for that
stay who you are
not just for me
but for god you'll see
we love you for who you are
that woman you are
that mother you are
that beautiful soul
and loving heart
no matter what
you will always be
~My Mother~
~I Love You~

*********************************
~Till death~
By: Jennifer Sick


She closed her eyes and had a dream
God was there with a bright glowing beam
he said to her "your time has come and gone"
be not afraid
your soul is not lost
for you are in heaven
she looked around
and what did she see
loved ones thats where once lost
well how can that be?
what God has said
must be true
Theres no pain, no fear
not even a tear

She looked down and what did she see?
her family and friends crying sadly
She turned to God and said,
"why are they crying
so sad and so dim"

Its cause they lost a loved one
so pure and so beautiful
they lost their daughter and even their mother...

She tryed to cry out
and tell them shes ok
but they did not hear
so she fell to her knees
and began to pray
"Oh God please protect them"
"let my daughter know that I will always be there"
"i will guide her"
"lover her and always protect her"

God did just as she asked,
and the family moved on
but still thing of her
again and again...

This is dedicated to my mother...
I love you...

A message from her daughter

Hello everyone. My names Jennifer Sick but im sure you already know this. My mom always made sure she included me in anything she wrote especially on her blogs. She was a very outgoing person and one of a kind. There is noone out there that could ever replace my mother. She inspired me to do many things and im sure she also inspired many others. She was a fighter. She refused to give up. Chemo treatments, radiation, pain medications, and surgerys after surgerys she fought to destroy this cancer that took her life. She told herself everyday "yes i can". She once held me in her arms and told me shes doing everything she could to prolong her life for me. There are so many things she will miss and things she will not see. Why should a woman so yound and so beautiful lose her life to such a horrible desease? Lifes not fair. Always tell the ones you love just how much you love and care about them cause you never know what tomorrow has in store. I love you mom. You were strong. I hope your on your beach house in heaven with your toes in the sand surronded my shells and the wonderful sun waiting for me. I will see you then. Till then I hope your happy and comfortable in your new life. Love you always, Your daughter, Jennifer.

Passing of our loving Becky

Becky passed on this afternoon at 12:17 pm. She is now free from the pain of this cancer and her spirit can move on to be free. We will always remeber her as she was. Her wonderful spirit that loved life, loved writing, loved the water and beach. We will miss her dearly!

Love, her sister-

Rest In Peace
March 2, 1969 - July 17, 2009